An Open Letter to Brother

Hi Brother

The last time I wrote a letter to you, the God-damn courier company probably made a paper boat out of it and used it to sail on the roads of ever water logged Kankarbagh. So the open letter this time. 

You are about to begin a new phase of your life. You are leaving home for pursuing your graduation. I know you do not need any sermons or lectures on how to survive in this cruel world, away from family. In spite of being five years younger than me, you are way more practical and matured, and I know you will be able to tackle every situation that comes your way. I have always been the rebel child, and you the obedient child of mom and dad. So keep it that way even when you are miles away from them. Whenever something distracts you from your goals, remember that your elder sister has already been a disappointment, and that our parents have now pinned their hopes on you. Do not let them down. This certainly does not mean that you don't have to enjoy your life. Relish every bit of the coming four years. Meet new people, explore new places, follow your passions. 

Before this letter starts sounding like a moral science class, I just want to say one last thing... Be a man of dignity and the rest will follow.

Best wishes for your new life.

Yours truly,

Anni Di

The Climb

I can almost see it

That dream I’m dreaming

But there’s a voice inside my head saying

“You’ll never reach it”

Every step I’m taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking!- “The Climb” by Miley Cyrus

                             

Ocean of thoughts filling my mind…I’m getting paranoid if they’ll founder me… I guess its time for a self assessment… a bit of introspection… if I really want to save my titanic!
Where am I going? What am I doing? What am I supposed to do? What’s happening around me? Can I make any difference to it?

I used to think that I've become a mature person, I've started differentiating between the right and the wrong, and I’m ready to face the “Real World”.
But I think I was wrong. I was so wrong. I’m still that teenage girl who thinks she will get everything she dreams of… a successful career, a loving life partner and a luxurious life for her family.

Of course she can still get all this, if…. *sigh*
Life would have been so simple without these ifs and buts… but here it is… with all its complications.
Never mind… if life has got a challenge for me, I’ll accept it wholeheartedly!

The last three years have not been what I had expected them to be! From personal life to academic life, I've not been able to deliver my best. In fact, I've made some of the biggest mistakes of my life. I've hurt myself, I've hurt others, I've hurt my family. I've been taking things too lightly… not learning from my mistakes and repeating them again and again.
But what now, is it too late? Am I doomed?
Are all my dreams shattered?
I was that over ambitious girl who wanted to have everything in her life… where did she go? She’s still here I guess! Then what went wrong? Perhaps she thinks she’ll get her dreams fulfilled just by sitting idle and wasting time! But she has to realize that not much time is left for her to waste.

EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE!
It’s never too late to be what u might have been. 

For you… FIDATO!

“Fidato”… It means a person you trust the most. It means someone with whom you can be yourself, someone who knows every little secret of yours, someone who can make you feel better every single time you’re low!

Lucky are those who have a Fidato in their lives… and I am one of them! 

Sarthak Dubey, Oriental, Mechanical Engineering… a typical Bhopali Brahmin lad!

Me on the other hand, Oriental, Electronics and Communication Engineering… a typical Pataniya Kayastha lass!

Walking on two different roads with different groups of people, its strange how our paths crossed … Ok now I won’t go into the details of how we became friends and all… but yeah it was meant to be! 

And then… there he was, every single time I needed him…

He was there to make me smile every time I cried…

He helped me in making choices every time I was confused…

Countless times he has chosen me over slumber so that I don’t spend the entire night crying…

What is he best at?? Making fun of people whom I’ve dated or hated just to make me feel better… :D :D

I love him for that!

But he’s even better at making me feel comfortable. Not even once he has let that creepy… “More than friends” waali feeling come between us. And I’m so thankful to him for that!

I don’t know what he does to me but at times I feel he’s like a pied piper when it comes to giving suggestions. I follow every word he says blindly! Gosshh Sarthak Dubey!!!!!!!!!!!

When I’m with him, I can never manipulate anything coz he knows better what’s going inside my li’l head :P

Through this post I want to tell u that these three and a half years of my life would have been tougher if u wouldn’t have been a part of it!

And yeah wanna let you know that you’re a far better fidato than John was in “Jhootha hi sahi” :D :D

Thank you for everything

May every girl get a FIDATO like you… Amen!

Nail Care at Fingertips!

Admiring her long, clean nails... the girl-next-door was wondering what should be the topic of her next blog post...
NAIL CARE?? Yes, definitely!! People should know how to maintain healthy and beautiful nails.

A little time and effort can go a long way in creating gorgeous nails you'll be proud of. Though nails are the dead cells of our body, still we need to take due care of them to keep them live and attractive.

Basic nail care includes cleaning, trimming and filing your nails. You can easily do these steps at home. There's no set rule for how often you can manicure your nails, but in general it should not be done more than once a week.

1. CLEANING
     Soak nails in a bowl of warm water with a gentle soap/shampoo to loosen the dirt. Then clean the nails using a nail brush or soft plastic bristles. The bristles should be firm enough to remove dirt and debris, but make sure they are not too stiff either.

2. TRIMMING
     Trimming nails can keep them looking clean and at a manageable length. Choose a nail length that's appropriate for you. If you wish to keep long nails, use a pair of sharp nail clippers.

3. FILING
     Filing is an important part of nail care. It smooth-ens and shapes nail tips to make them look beautiful. For best results, use a fine grade wooden nail file. File in one direction and avoid filing down the sides of nails.


STAMPING NAIL ART:

Stamping Nail Art lets you put designs by stamping pre-designed images on your nails. Apply or change designs any time you want... do it yourself in just minutes at home, at a friend's house or anywhere you desire. Follow these instructions to do your fingernail art stamping:

• Choose a base coat color. Paint your nails and wailt until the coat dries.
• Apply a different color nail polish to your disc or image plate or straight to the stamper. Your kit will probably come with colors you can choose from. Scrape excess paint off if using a disc and press the stamper firmly onto the disc.
• Press the stamper onto your nails, transferring the design to your nails.
• Put a clear coat of nail polish that comes with your kit to prevent your design from smearing.

With Stamping Nail Art you can create perfect and classy nail designs spending very little time and money, just like a professional nail artist... or even better ;)

14 Useless Tid Bits Of Info About Me!

1.       I love the word awesome… even if the likeness is not that strong, I’ll still describe it as…”u know what, it was just AWESOME!!”

2.       I talk 2 my mom about 4 times a day… since the day I’ve left home, there hasn’t been a single day I haven’t talked 2 her…sharing even the silliest of the things! Love you mummy!

3.       Whenever I do something… I have 101 reasons 2 prove myself right!

4.       I may shout at the top of my voice if I get over excited about something… so think twice before hanging out with me! :P

5.       If you tickle me… then I’m not responsible for your injuries!

6.    My close ones call me “overacting ki dukaan”…  Jus pat on my shoulders & I’ll give u the reaction of a bone getting fractured….. ahhhh mummmmaaaaaaaa!

        

7.       Waiting for someone pisses me off a lot…!

8.       I keep on wondering why God made “lizards”… the world would have been definitely a better place without these creepy creatures! Eewww!!

9.       Can’t live a day without talking to my best friend… totally addicted to that moron… & fortunately, vice versa!!!

10.   Too obsessed with anything and everything related to marriages… from wedding dresses to wedding songs… from the mehendi to the shehnai…!!!!!!!!

11.   I cry over the smallest things… freaking people around me (specially my roomie)… And the very next morning I’m like… “Why you guys so serious???”

12.   I love it when someone says, “u seem to have put on a li’l weight”… My reaction to it…”Seriously??? Awww” 

13.   I swear to myself, every time I go out to buy something, that I won’t even look at pink stuffs… No points for guessing it… yeah I end up buying PINK… why God why??????????? 

14.   My life is nuts… & I just love it that way!

Oouch... its one sided!!!

Oouch… did u say “One Sided”?? It hurts… It definitely does!

It is one of the worst thing that can happen to anyone. Nothing can be more painful than falling in love with someone who can never be yours. People say love is wonderful. All I wonder is how can something so damn wonderful in essence be such a torture when it comes to “Unrequited love”!!

So what next? Do you want to keep on crying for that person who does not even notice your tears? No way! Keep these few tips in mind and I assure you… U’ll start enjoying your love rather than crying over it! 

1.     Don’t force yourself to hate them: If you’re thinking that the only way to get over your feelings is to start hating him/her, then let me tell you, you are only making matters worse for yourself as you’re eventually thinking of that person even more! 

2.    Don’t force them to love you: You simply cannot make anyone fall for you. Everyone have their choices just as you do. For once, think from their perspective, you might not be the one he/she is looking for! You just gotta deal with this truth and it will definitely hurt less.

3.    Keep yourself busy: Come on guys, there’s a lot of important work to do than sitting back and thinking about the one who doesn’t give a damn to you and your feelings. Dedicate your time to your work, your studies, your hobbies! Go get a life!!

4.    Don’t seclude yourself from your dear ones: Try to spend more time with your family and friends. I know you must have been ignoring them, be it unintentionally, for that one person. Don’t do that. Being with them will help you keep your mind off him/her.

5.    Acceptance: This is the biggest step… to realize this was never real, to realize this person was never meant to be yours, to realize you have got no reason to love him/her. I know its difficult but atleast its way better than continue living in a fantasy world… isn’t it?

6.    Time heals all pain: Someday… maybe not today or not tomorrow…but someday… the scars will fade away with time. Time will fill the gap. Life is short and there is no point waiting for someone you can’t have. Instead find someone special who completes you.

Before applying the above tips, always remember no tips can make your life better unless you want it to be better. 

Fact: This will make you feel good… The feeling of not being loved by the person you love, affects 98% of all people during their lifetimes!

So stop having such thoughts in your mind like, “Why me?” or even more dramatic ones like, “Am I  not worth of his/her love” and blah blah! If you’re having such thoughts then let me tell you… YOU’RE SPECIAL AND YOU’LL ALWAYS BE! J

The End

I knew it was meant to end... I knew I couldn't have you for eternity... I knew you would go away someday!

You say you didn't want to change for me... even I never wanted that!

All I ever wanted was to be loved by you...!!!!

And that couldn't happen!

I tried to continue our friendship and suppress my feelings...

Even that couldn't happen!

I tried to part ways and forget you...

Well the "forget you" part couldn't happen and can never happen!

So here we are... parting our ways!

Don't take me wrong... but that's the only choice I have!

Someone has truly said, "TO HAVE SOMETHING HALFWAY IS HARDER THAN NOT HAVING IT AT ALL"

So I would prefer not having you at all.

You'll always be loved and missed by a crazy lass...

Bye. Take care. :)